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I love good movies and books. I love talking philosophy on life, death, perspective, and religion. I am a lucid dreamer and think my life wouldnt be complete without an adventure every night:) Zach is my whole life and I can't wait till we can add to our wonderful family:)

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE...

I've felt like I haven't spent a lot of time on my self.... o what would it be... self worth I guess. So I've decided to make a list of things I need to do to help me appreciate the beautiful moments of life. including some of the most wonderful moments I've experienced recently. So, here's my list of....THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE...


snowboarding. its such an epic feeling of gratification when i take that jump that i know i couldn't have done a year ago. its the feeling of flying. perfect control over gravity. It pushes me to my extreme physical exhaustion in a very gratifying way. I need the power and excitement to trump the boring nonsense that regular life entails.


laughing with my mom. Its one of the simplest joys. No one in this world knows me the way she does and the connection we have is by far the most genuine. I love her and love spending real time laughing and having a good time. I'm so blessed to have such an amazing mother.


dancing with my sisters. Because they are so much fun! and the silly moments are my favorite with them. I love how I can be my one hundred percent crazy self and they love me for it. Unfortunately they are now old enough to know how crazy I actually am:) lol.



hiking up to the waterfall at Adams canyon. I used to go up almost every day when I just got back from virginia. I loved being able to connect with myself and feel a bit more grounded. Plus there's nothing quite like the feeling of being removed from civilization:) Even thinking about it makes me want to be a kid again. Hiking up there with Ben, Phebe, Mckalle, Brady, Tai, Zaz, Robby and everyone else in the crew. I should try and get everyone together this summer for a big camping trip. If we schedule it pretty far in advance I might get more of the "posse" there. :)


building snowmen. I havent gotten all my snow clothes on and played in the snow in too long. Its so cozy and fun to be all snuggled up in layers and layers.



feeling the sun on my face. Thinking of summer. Remembering what it felt like to feel its warmth. walking home from church. with my heels at hand feeling the earth under my feet. :) i miss the sunshine. winters can be hard. i just need to get up on the slopes and do some snowboarding and enjoy the little bit of snow that's here:)


going to the park. which was always so special. I always think about Scotty B. always always.. and also pizza and playing frizbee:) those were such innocent days. Just all of us hanging out in the quite shade. When I look back to those moments it makes me envious of the simpleness that was my life. I honestly need to find these moments everyday. And learn to better myself every passing moment.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

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This reminds me of zach :)











Its been a while

My dreams have become less and less visually impacting. They've been coming with just an emotional pull for me to better things in my life. Mostly pulling for progression. The dream I had last night was me just moving through a scrambled array of nonsense of pictures and images and signs relating to becoming a doctor. Just like every one in this lonely world I've always wanted to become something great. To help people and "change the world" of course. Its a hopeless search of reaching my "full potential". Some days I feel closer than others. I know that everyone has dreams of doing something great in high school. But those wishes and dreams are rarely accomplished. Even if you played the guitar religiously you may never receive your "big break" and end up living in meritocracy just like everyone else. I was told just the other day not to get stuck in life but to find my truth and live it. I've named this blog Mi'Ma'amakim (out of the depths) for a reason. This is my truth.